Well, there goes my sanity again. At even the slightest worrisome sign, I immediately jump to the worst conclusions.
I've read on numerous pregnancy websites that increased milk intake can sometimes lead to bloating and gas, and man have I been drinking more milk lately. It just tastes so good.
So, as of this moment, I'm trying to blame the cow juice and not assume I've had another miscarriage.
This morning I couldn't Google "first trimester cramping" fast enough. Last night I experienced horrible pains while I was at work. It was like my entire abdomen was waging a war against me. My stomach hurt, my intestines were working overtime filtering what felt like gigantic air bubbles, and I had period-like cramps, too.
By the end of my shift, it was uncomfortable to walk, sit, stand and exist. I found myself running to the bathroom more frequently than even is normal for me at this point. Then I'd just sit there, trying to expel the gassy demons inside me while sort of praying at the same time. Even the least substantial farts felt like pure bliss, and I felt so thankful that most of the late night news crew is men and there were only three other women likely to walk into my nightmare. Fortunately for all of us, none of them did.
When I got home, I was worried out of my mind. The cramping continued throughout much of the night and even woke me up at one point it was so bad. My eyes and mouth shot open in pain in the darkness, but I somehow managed to fall back to sleep despite all of my worrying.
The good news is that I feel much better this morning. The better news is that I haven't experienced any bleeding or spotting at all.
But damned if any pregnancy websites really help me with this quandary. Some just dismiss it as a regular symptom of the first trimester. Others predict sudden and spontaneous miscarriage. (But don't bother worrying, there's nothing you can do about it.)
I did have painful cramping like this in the sixth week or so without consequence, so that's helping to keep me sane a little, too.
All I know is that the end of this month can't get here soon enough. May 1 marks the start of my second trimester and even though it's a small benchmark, it seems like a major destination at this point.